Day 31

Today I was heartbroken. I had signed up to bring a couple of meals to a family in Maddie's class who has a child that was just diagnosed with cancer. He's only 12 months old and his life and those of his parents and brothers is totally changed. Today was my first visit to their home to bring the lasagna I made, salad and some fruit. Maddie went with me since one of the brother's is in her class. The mom was very thankful and she held her baby while we talked. He was beautiful but he also looks sick. He has a grayish complexion and dark circles under his eyes. He broke my heart. It's one of those things in this world that we are never going to understand. Why our God would have this baby get cancer. All I could pray as I drove home was for a miracle in their life. That this little baby would be spared. His mother told me that tomorrow he has scans to see how things are coming along. I'm praying that those scans bring news that is cause for celebration. I cried as I drove home because I feel so undeserving of this life that has been given to me. Healthy, beautiful children, a home, a husband who loves me no matter what...I'm thankful today. I definitely got a dose of perspective this afternoon.