Monday, November 8, 2010

Day 233

It's been a while since I could blog. We've had a very tough last few days and so today while the kids are at school and Gabe is at work, I feel like I have a moment of peace. Maddie is finally well (we've been sick for almost 2 weeks with everything from a cold, to a fever that wouldn't quit, to a throwing-up-stomach-bug). I'm so thankful that today she is able to be back at school with her friends and that I'm able to grocery shop, do laundry and head to the dentist all on my own!

Most of you know that the last couple of days have brought some real grief to our little world. On Friday morning we were alerted to the news that an employee and dear friend from Dog School had committed suicide. He was only 24 years old. It hit everyone very hard, especially Gabe and the best thing I can say about Friday is that we survived it; somewhat sane and very sober. Saturday was full of moodiness, anger, sadness, and confusion....all the while trying to entertain and make happy 2 little girls. It was tough, to say the least. Sunday was busy and I believe that's what we needed. Honestly I couldn't sit in this house just the four of us for one more minute or I might have screamed. We made it to the Northern VA AA Gratitude Breakfast (which we attend every year) and heard the best speaker I've ever heard. It was such a God thing. The things this man said really resonated with me and I left feeling a little lighter of spirit. The afternoon was spent at a birthday party for one of Maddie's friends followed by a family drive to Maryland for dinner with our close friends. Being with friends, who are sober and were totally there for us on Friday, was the best part of my day. They were there to listen, eat with and laugh with and it was just what we needed.

So, today starts a new week and new hope. I've meal planned and shopped. The laundry is going and I'm out the door to the dentist. Hopefully just the routine and normalcy of life can be a sort of comfort for us.

The last thing I have to say is that the tragedy of Friday reminded me of how many people love us. I reached out to many in my program of recovery as well as family and the best thing they all offered to me was love. To me, it was an expression of how God loves us; without reservation. If you're one of those people, thank you from deep deep down in my heart.


Anonymous said...

So happy to hear that you guys had friends out there who you could be with yesterday and that both you and Gabe are strong.
We are so sorry for your loss. Justin and I talked about it this weekend. Life is just so short and we are all so blessed to have each other, that's what matters most.
I hope a "normal" day helps to bring back some sense of normalcy.
I love you.

Anonymous said...

I love you both soooooo soooo much and i am praying for you!

Chronicles of Momnia said...

we are so glad pizza with "extra protein" helped in some small way. ;-)