Saturday, September 20, 2008

One Long Day

Well, I'm still alive! I knew that having 2 kids would cut into my blogging time, but I guess I had no idea how much :) Let's see. My mom left this morning and I think I've cried about a dozen times since. There's just something about having your mom around. I think that it means more to me because she lives so far away; I don't take her for granted. She was here for two and half weeks and what a blessing that was. Seriously-don't know how I would have done it without all of that help. So today is a bittersweet day. It's the day that I become the mom of 2 little girls and I have to balance my time, energy and love-and I have to figure out how to do that on my own. Gabe's a huge help (probably more so than a lot of husbands) but I'm the stay at home mom and so ultimately it comes down to me and the two of them.
Maddie is doing well. She loves her baby sister and gives her kisses on the head all the time. She's a little less patient with me and spends a large majority of her day saying "Moooommmmmmmmmmmy" and "Where'd nigh-nigh go?" So, me and her blanket are her two favorite comfort items at the moment. She's more needy than usual, but that's to be expected. With the amount (or lack there of) sleep I'm getting, it's hard to be as patient as I normally am with her. But, I'm trying. She's doing really well at preschool and her teachers tell me they love her; and really, that's all I wanted. I wanted the teachers to love her and care about her and I can tell that they really do. What a good feeling! Grace is doing well too, although she seems to have already caught her first cold. With Maddie starting preschool that same week that I had Grace, we were all bound to come into contact with some new germs. I have a weird lingering cough, Maddie has been sleeping/not sleeping at weird times, and Grace has mucus in her nose and throat. Nothing like a Saturday morning at the pediatricians office! So, that's what Grace and I did today. It's funny, but even the second time around, I still get freaked out about some things. A sick newborn is hard to not get freaked out about. Gabe is much more calm about all this. Thank God for him! So, hopefully tonight will bring more sleep than last night-for ALL of us! I have more pic's to post and will do so hopefully tomorrow. They change so fast...

*Please excuse my ramblings but I'm blogging on only 3 hours of sleep*


Anonymous said...

Sar, I've been praying for you all day. I knew your mom was leaving today, but didn't know you guys have been battling a bug. Hang in there. So wish I could come give you some help in a couple of weeks like I was able to do with Maddie.
Hang in there, Love you,

Anonymous said...

Big hugs straight from the heart because I know exactly what you're going through. Trust me, three and a half months in and we're still here and surviving. It does get easier. The initial feelings of being tugged in two different directions and dragged every which way subside and finally some level of equilibrium takes over and you manage. You'll even surprise yourself the first time you realize that yes you can do this and still be smiling at the end of the day. :) It's a great feeling and there are many more yet to come. And of course, we're always here for you when those tougher days aren't going as quickly as you might like. :) I know you've got lots of wonderful people to help you out but please don't hesitate. Lots of Love, xxx Siobhan

Mom said...

Sarah -
I just want to remind you (and all your readers) how very capable you are! I loved being with all of you and getting to live your daily life with you. What the experience reinforced for me is what wonderful parents you and Gabe are. Maddie shows so much love to her sister and everyone else because she has been given so much love. She is the absolute demonstration of the love in her life. She's such a lucky girl - she has you and Gabe and Sandy, Carlos, Patrice and Eric at her beck and call!! Now Grace will get to experience all that love plus the love of her big sissy! You are doing a great job and just remember that you will figure this out. You figured out how to take care of Maddie and juggling the two of them will present some challenges but you are surrounded by people who want to help you so please accept the help.
I thank you from the bottom of my heart for allowing me to be with you during Grace's birth and for letting me share your life these past few weeks. I can't even begin to explain how much I miss you all. I love you all - MOM

SARAH said...

Thanks Clod. We're hanging in there and actually doing pretty well considering how tired we are :) Siobhan, thank you for calling me the other day. It made my day to be able to talk to another mom who is going through the same things that I am! Have a great time in Vermont. Mom, THANK YOU for being here; for putting your life on hold to be part of mine. It was the best gift I've ever been given. Love to you all!

Anonymous said...

Sarah: I love the pictures, and I am so very happy Carole was with you these last few weeks. Maddie is changing so much - a little girl. Take care and get some rest - give kisses to your family from mine.

Love Aunt Susan