As I type this, Gabe and I are on a vacation in the Bahamas. It's been really good. It's fun to be able to finish a thought and a sentence. I've enjoyed meals where I get to eat the whole thing without getting up to get someone more water or a different fork. But, at the same time, I miss them terribly. They truly are my world. It's funny how life is; last week I was counting the minutes until I could shower uninterrupted and now it feels oddly quiet when I can pluck my eyebrows without a barrage of questions!
We talked to them yesterday and Grace is simply carrying on with life as usual (that's SO Grace) and Maddie is sad. Last night we talked to Sandy (who has been watching them) and she said she came downstairs to find Maddie sobbing while looking at a picture of Gabe and I. I was heartbroken to hear this. She is my emotional one. She told me before my trip that she doesn't like me to go away because even though she can talk to me, she can't touch me. I totally get this. Being hugged, held and loved by people who are connected to you is irreplaceable. Deep down, she is fine and I have to keep telling myself that. My heart is so connected to hers though. I woke at 2:12am and stayed up until around 4. I couldn't sleep and she was the first thing that entered my mind; actually it was her and ordering a crib. A mother's mind never rests :)